Our usual routine of going to bed around 1am has me
pumping my final drops of
breast milk here now at 12:30am. My son mostly gets formula these days because our
latch never worked out right. Looking back, I wish I could have prevented the hospital from giving him formula with
bottles. After that happened, I also had latch issues when the LC finally came in to help me trying
breast feeding. The LC said my
nipples were a little bit flat, and my son was a lazy sucker. I didn't even think to try using my bare nipple to BF once we got home. I had given up. I used a
pump and a
nipple shield. He latched three times for me in January, and each time was followed by a pop and a cry for a silicone nipple instead. My son prefers the bottles. Given the fact that he was able to latch, I am going to force the issue with my next child in the hospital. He or she will NOT be given a pacifier or bottle nipple.
Pumping is no fun. The nipple shield was a hassle, especially at night. I just want that natural bonding "thing" without the aid of modern inventions. My
milk supply is dwindling because I don't have the time to pump every two hours while
force feeding myself gallons of water. I've come to terms with it. I have about 30 bags of milk in my freezer, and I'm still getting about 1-3oz at each pumping session. I try to pump at least twice a day. Recently, I've been giving the milk directly to my son rather than freezing it. I went back to work last week, and I only pumped once while there.
I'm sorry this posting is somewhat all over the place. I guess it's more for me to read later on and remember what was going through my mind at this time.
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