December 10, 2010

Induction Time!

Daddy Holding HeadImage by rumpleteaser via Flickr
As this posts, I'm officially getting admitted to the hospital for my labor induction. I write this post as a married woman with 2 furbabies.   Aside from my dogs, I've never been a caregiver for anyone other than myself.  As of right now, I don't feel extremely maternal. I have a 9lb baby in my belly, but he's just a slow moving blob that occasionally pushes against my rib cage. I'm curious to know what staying in the hospital will feel like. I'm wondering if my labor will be harder than I thought or easier. I'm also crossing my fingers and praying that a c-section is not in my future.

I'm full of excitement and my nerves are all crazy. Most of my nerves are based on labor. The fact that I will have a son in my arms very soon hasn't really hit me yet. Having a child is something that I can't fathom preparing for. I'm as ready as I'll ever be. I want to know what my son looks like. I want to give him the love I've always dreamed of giving my children some day. I can't wait to feel that mother/baby bond that releases all those wonderful endorphins.  I also can't wait to see my husband hold him for the first time.

My husband is a blessing. He's going to make a great dad, and I hope to learn a lot from him. I feel so lucky to be the mother of his children. There are many pregnant girls out there dealing with bad relationships or non-existent relationships. My husband and I have a special bond, and we really do look at life like a team. We want to work together throughout this world, and I can honestly say there's nothing but love between us. I can't wait to share that love and grow it with our son. I can't believe that it's been almost 5 years since we started officially dating each other. As excited and giddy as I was then, I would have never thought we'd be married, home-owners, and expecting our first child right now. I'm more in love with him now than I've ever been before. After this weekend, my love for him will be even greater.

It's game time.
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1 comment:

Anne said...

YAY!!! SO excited for you!!! Enjoy this antecipation time girl, it's so fun. Even if you think it's not now, you'll remember it like it was :). And NEVER worry about not knowing how to be a caregiver - I've always been the baby of my family, and barely was able to take care of myself until a couple of years ago. I was TERRIFIED of not knowing how to be a mother. But trust me, NO ONE will love this child as much as you. That alone will make you the person that's the most in tune with him, you'll see. It takes time for you to get to know each other, so don't worry if it feels weird in the beginning, but soon you'll learn how he functions, and he'll get to know you. Then your baby will trust you so completely that you'll have no choice but to trust yourself! :) Praying for you girl, keep us posted!